JJ and I

JJ and I had a lovely evening, he and I watched a Christmas special and had talks about Jesus our savior tonight. I feel so privialaged to have the opportunity to teach a young child about our savior. Nothing gets me more than music of the season, my favorites "little drummer boy" and "oh Holy night"....I am in tears tonight listening to these songs. I try to share memories with my son, so he can make his own memories... I have a tremendous fear, that I will not do this season justice. I try so hard to share pasts of my own so he can have a memory to hold onto....talking to my brother last night, I realize how important memories are, how do we create these for our children? Hopefully tonight my son seeing his mommy in tears for beutiful classic Chrismas songs will be a start. I have such a love of this time of year and want to share with everyone.

Most of our family is in Washington, so we miss them dreadfully at Chrismas time, the memories that my brother and I have seem so long ago...How wonderful to have such a large family get together at Christmas time, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents........Here in Alaska we dont have that, (uncle reck sorry to single you out.....love you so much but where are my neices and nephews????!!!!!!) where are the cousins for my boy and girl to know???? where is Kirsten, Brandon, Kurt, Michelle, Emily and Scotty, Derek and Deanna in the holliday mix? What fun we had at Christmas time at Nanny and Poppas house......I only want my children to have such great memories.

Anyway, so sorry, I just rambled way to much.....we had a lovely evening other than that I cried tonight because we were watching a Christmas special without daddy and we missed him alot.....JJ held me close and was reluctant to go to bed because I was sad....we just miss him when he is gone and especially during the holidays, we feel a great loss that daddy is away making sure we have a lovely house and food to eat.....we appreciate him more than he knows.

sorry all, my husband who we miss terribly needs to see his kids while he is away at work so must all reading this.... Diva knows the reason for a brush now....(finally getting about 1/2 inch of hair almost a year old...so not fair) here she is combing "pretty baby's hair".

JJ with his beloved pet "JJ JR" the hampster....hes doing so well with him, holds him every day and makes sure he has food and water, funny he ignored his dog and took him 6 days to notice his dog was gone but anyway another story, mabe hes a rodent friend???? no clue.....

Love you Daddy, thank you for working so hard for us.....we miss you.....

Anna, JJ and Diva

Posted by Deanna at December 1, 2004 10:58 PM